i hate that i'm at home babysitting and no one wants to reply to my messages :(

that awkward moment where you think someone actually wants to know whats wrong and you tell them and they go offline

i feel like we have nothing to talk about. That sucks so much

screw you

cant rewind

i'm sorry that i'm not the person that i was last year or the year before.
i wish that we could be back to how we were,
when no one had moved away
when guys didn't matter and if they did there was nothing bad or confusing about it
when school wasn't so hard and i was still passing everything
when my teachers cared about my grades
when it didnt matter if one of us wasnt here because the other two always were
when i didn't snap at the slightest things
when i didnt feel left out most bio lessons
when i had the motivation to do things
when it didn't matter that we didnt have ball dates coz we had each other
when we werent afraid to yell at each other across the school
when hearing "GERMS!" made my day
when i hadnt gone to the funeral of a 17 year old and watched as her family filled her grave
when economics was the highlight of my day
when rangers was full of smiley people and library jokes
when i didnt have to worry about uni
when it didnt matter how much work i was getting or how much i'm paid
when my car just "Went"without needing crap
when we didn't have so much work to do
when you werent so obsessed with your homework that you forgot about your friends
when it didnt feel like you'd rather spend time in palmy than with me
when i didnt think that some days i'd rather her over you
when i went to my other family's house on wednesday afternoons
when K & I watched jeremy kyle while eating pies and custard buns from broadway
when we knew for certain we'd be friends forever

I wish so much that we could go back to all this

I'm standing on the bridge,
i'm waiting in the dark
i thought that you'd be here by now
there's nothing but the rain
no footsteps on the ground
i'm listening but there's no sound

isn't anyone trying to find me
wont somebody come take me home?

Its a damn cold night
trying to figure out this life
wont you, take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
i dont know who you are
but i, i'm with you
i'm with you

i'm looking for a place
i'm searching for a face
is anybody here, i know?
coz nothings going right
and everythings a mess
and no one likes to be alone

isn't anyone trying to find me?
wont somebody come take me home?

Its a damn cold night
trying to figure out this life
wont you, take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
i dont know who you are
but i, i'm with you
i'm with you

Oh, why is everything so confusing
maybe i'm just out of my mind
yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah, oh

its a damn cold night
trying to figure out this life
wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
i dont know who you are
but i, i'm with you
i'm with you
take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
i dont know who you are
but i, i'm with you
oh
i'm with you
i'm with you

phone calls

i was looking so forward to that phone call.

so why is it that the second i hung up all i could do was cry?

I miss my best friend so much :"((