On this day in 2010, you went into hospital.

We didn't know about it straight away

But when we did find out

We knew what had happened

A week of pain was to follow

For everyone, but especially for you

We miss your smile Rach x

I'm sorry that you saw that
I never planned for you to see it,
nor did i ever plan for it to hurt you..
I can't comprehend to you how much I wish we could just get on with life
without having to worry about anything
without getting upset
without freaking out
without being jealous

Its like dejavu.. I started liking him

then i went overseas

when i came back things started getting more intense

then it stopped

I hope you're happy

You got what i wanted

you got him

you got him asking you to the movies

texting you

flirting with you

caring about you

You always wanted to know why i liked him in the first place,

and now you know

he's a decent guy

who actually cares

just not about me

he cares about the pretty one instead

the athlete

the one who is passing

the one who's off representing her country

the one who doesnt have mental issues

the one who isn't insecure

I'm sick of being sick

I want you to make an effort to contact me during the week

I have facebook too you know

I never get sick

But the one time i do you dont seem to want to make an effort to see if i'm alright

so i feel crap
my voice is gone 90% of the time
my throat hurts
i dont want to load up on drugs coz i only have 2 cold tablets left
i have 2 shifts at work this weekend,
plus i need to study
tomorrow will be at least 3 hours
maybe 6
sunday will be 9 hours
i have to go
i need the money
i'm filling in for someone else
but i feel like crap


what to do what to do

oh well thanks.

you obviously care a lot about me

do you not think that it might be nice to repay the favour to me sometime?

gonna be an Almost aunty but technically cousin!!! yay!!!!!