You don't make this easy for me, do you?
For once it would be nice to just hear from a guy that "hey you look nice today" or "we should hang out more often". But no. I'm about to end my entire 13 years at school having only gone out with one guy. It kinda sucks really.

I know its not realistic and i'm not the only one, but i'd kinda like to feel special for once

I think I just realised something

Why does this have to be so complicated???? Can't males just be normal and stop confusing me?

Well that kind of hurt a bit. I don't really know what I was expecting but I guess that wasn't it

and You didn't just brush off my text this afternoon, you completely ignored it

I know that this isn't ordinary but you said you'd be there and you werent

I wish you would text me back

This isn't me
This isn't what I do
But for once I feel Happy

I don't know what I'm meant to do
I don' understand whats happening
But the fact I'm scared
doesn't even matter
Because it feels like it will all be ok

What if it wasn't coincidence?

What if the fact you're still speaking to me didn't just work out that way?

What if the fact that while i was epically failing chemistry, i prayed, meant that things are working out?

What does this mean?

I wish there was someone out there who had all the answers

Someone said yesterday they like the fact I'm christian.

I cried

I didnt know what to think

They noticed me enough to think that I can fit in there.

They think i already do

I've never been so, not honored but yeah.

I dont know if i know how to move forward now

The future was scary before.

Now we've added this whole different dimension

Good job jess

I still don't understand.... :/