if only you knew...

i just can't be good enough can I?

Sometimes feelings go away after you see a person again after you've been thinking about them all week. Sometimes you realise that a lot of the things that you liked were just created by your imagination...
I don't think that's the case... Even just a few minutes brightened my day :)

I'm kinda nervous about next weekend now... :/ I don't know who to talk to about it.. and i don't know what to say about how i feel

i feel like you've completely taken my place and now there is no where for me to fit

*sigh* I don't know what to think. Now that its out there it seems so ... strange..
I'm not the kind of girl that a guy like you would be interested in.

Go with the flow.. thats what i've been told. I'm trying.. but imagination is a great thing. It just creates these scenarios. All the time. I find myself picturing what it would be like... and it makes me smile...

oh my gosh, what am i doing??

i hate being the only one who is growing up and going to uni, while everyone else is still acting like they're 15. I know a couple of you moved away and that's really cool, but no one here seems to realise just quite how big this is for me, and still get to just muck around, with weekend jobs and all the free time they could want. Holidays don't matter any more because they have the whole week. I'm always the one that has to be the adult