Stress:The confusion caused when ones mind overrides the body’s natural desire to choke the living shit out of some asshole that desperately needs it.

There's so much i wanna write about but I don't really know where to start.

Maybe I'll start with school. Or Finland.

There's officially 35 days until i leave!

I have an insane amount of homework and school work to catch up on.

English: We're doing creative writing at the moment. It's alright but it could be better. We're studying Schindler's List while i'm away, so i'm kinda hoping there'll be some good notes on the net that i can use - otherwise i'm gonna be kinda stuffed.

Economics: We're doing inflation at the moment and I'm pretty sure I did quite well on my practice test the other day. I think we start Government Polices next term and I really have no idea about the work :S

Computing: We're doing programming at the moment and I'm finding it really difficult, especially as the rest of the class spend their spare time programming, so know it better than the back of their hand. Apparently we're meant to be up to page 150 by the end of this weekend from the e-book. I'm up to page 46. I'm also working on PC Systems which is the topic for when I'm away. I've been working from the book Mr Curry gave me and taking notes. It's easier than trying to do the programming.

Maths: Maths is pretty good at the moment. I got excellence for stats which was awesome. We've started probability and we have our test on simulation next week I think. I'm not really sure what we're doing while I'm away but I think it might be trig. Once i remember how to do it, it shouldn't be too bad.

Chemistry: I got excellence for the quantitative analysis test the other day. It was pretty easy but I'm glad I got the E. We've just started thermo chemistry which should be easy enough once i get the hang of it. I've been withdrawn from the assessment that we're doing while I'm away (a whole day practical investigation) which is good. Miss said I don't have to worry about catching up on the work and that if I'm in class when the others are doing their assessment, I can use the time to catch up on other subjects which is great :) - or sleep!

Biology: Well I got excellence for my osmosis investigation. First time around which was awesome. I'm so pleased about that. Miss Brown was really pleased too. We started our research project about humans and an aspect of biology this week. I chose in vitro fertilisation with intracytoplasmic sperm injection (lol) or IVF with ICSI. It's pretty cool. I've also been withdrawn from the test in biology - luckily it's only a unit standard. But i still need to catch up on that work too. So as well as researching ICSI, i'm teaching myself about reproduction in plants. So far ive done ferns and mosses and asexual reproduction but i still have to do gymnosperms, angiosperms and a whole lot of others.

I''m so amazingly happy that I got those excellence credits. I now officially have twice as many as I did at the end of last year. I also have 11 more excellence credits in my sciences this year than i got last year in science (i got none last year)

It's really hard though. I'm quite tempted to just sit and cry.

At lunch today I almost cried. I think if i had kept going on about what was stressing me out, i would have. I know its kinda mean, but there's a few people out there that i just want to see me cry. Like you, person a. I wish that you could see me cry, just because i don't think you ever have, and i think you probably deserve it. And person b, if i cried in front of you, i'd just want a hug. I think i'd just want you to tell me that it's gonna be ok.

oooooooooooooooooooooooooo 34 days to go now.

This weekend, i have to study chemisty, finish my biology work from today, think up something to write about for english, do some computing catch up work and do a whole pile of research for biology. I also have work on sunday. At least its only four hours.

Anyway, i better be off now. its 12.25am and Mum's gonna be home soon.

Ciao for now