I'm beginning to wonder if it would just be easier to have a clean cut, rather than this confusion  ofnot knowing how much I can tell you about things. I don't trust you anymore and that makes me sad, but I have other people in my life who I can trust, who aren't going to judge me for what I say, and who aren't going to get all grumpy at me every week for having a bad day once in a while. A clean cut seems like it would be so much easier, but it wouldn't happen because I'd still see you every week :/